“How are you handling your grief?”
“Because they already lost their parents. They shouldn’t have to lose each other, too.”
That started months of checks and paperwork.
A therapist I had to see asked, “How are you handling your grief?”
“Badly,” I said. “But I’m still here.”
***
The first time I met the kids, it was in a visitation room with ugly chairs and fluorescent lights. All four were on one couch, shoulders and knees touching.
“Are you the man who’s taking us?”
I sat down across from them.
“Hey, I’m Michael.”
Ruby hid her face in Owen’s shirt. Cole stared at my shoes. Tessa folded her arms, chin up, pure suspicion. Owen watched me like a little adult.
“Are you the man who’s taking us?” he asked.
“If you want me to be.”
“Do you have snacks?”
“All of us?” Tessa asked.
“Yeah,” I said. “All of you. I’m not interested in just one.”
Her mouth twitched. “What if you change your mind?”
“I won’t. You’ve had enough people do that already.”
Ruby peeked out. “Do you have snacks?”
I smiled. “Yeah, I’ve always got snacks.”
Karen laughed softly behind me.
My house stopped echoing.
***
After that came the court.
A judge asked, “Mr. Ross, do you understand you are assuming full legal and financial responsibility for four minor children?”
“Yes, Your Honor,” I said. I was scared, but I meant it.
The day they moved in, my house stopped echoing. Four sets of shoes by the door. Four backpacks dumped in a pile.
“You’re not my real dad.”
The first weeks were rough.
Ruby woke up crying for her mom almost every night. I’d sit on the floor next to her bed until she fell asleep.
Cole tested every rule.
“You’re not my real dad,” he shouted once.
