“You’re staring at the peanut butter,” Mara said, pulling me back to the present.
“Am I?”
I looked down at the knife in my hand. “That’s never a good sign, is it?”
She gave me a small smile and reached for the bread. “Want me to finish those?”
“What I want,” I said, “is one normal morning where nobody sets a backpack on fire.”
From the hallway, Jason yelled, “That happened one time!”
“And that was enough!” I called back.
Mara shook her head, but there was a tiredness in her expression that hadn’t been there before.
People thought I was out of my mind for fighting for custody of those kids. My brother had said, “Loving them is one thing. Raising ten kids alone is another.”
But I couldn’t let them lose the only other parent figure they had.
So I learned everything.
Braiding hair. Cutting boys’ hair. Rotating lunches. Managing inhalers. Handling nightmares. I learned which child needed silence, and which one needed grilled cheese cut into stars.
I didn’t replace Calla.
But I stayed.
While I packed applesauce pouches into lunchboxes, Mara tightened Sophie’s backpack straps and said, “Dad, can we talk tonight?”
I looked up. “Of course, honey. Is everything okay?”
She held my gaze just a second too long. “Tonight,” she repeated.
Then she set the water bottle beside Sophie’s bag and walked away.
And that unease stayed with me all day.
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