Second semester was harder. My classes intensified. My jobs felt heavier. Some mornings I woke up so tired I could not immediately remember what day it was.
One morning, halfway through a café shift, the room tilted. I grabbed the counter as my vision blurred.
My manager rushed over. “Avery, sit down.”
“I’m okay,” I said automatically.
“You almost collapsed.”
She guided me into a chair and handed me water. “You need rest.”
I nodded even though we both knew I would be back at five the next morning. Rest was a luxury, and luxury had never really belonged to me.
Every night before I fell asleep, I repeated the same sentence to myself.
This is temporary.
Temporary exhaustion. Temporary loneliness. Temporary hunger. Temporary instability.
What was not temporary was what I was building.
A few weeks later, after I submitted an economics paper I had written in fragments between shifts, I felt a rare little flicker of pride. Two days after that, the papers were returned.
At the top of mine, in bold red ink, were the words A+ and a note beneath them.
Please stay after class.
My stomach tightened instantly. I packed my things slowly, convinced I had somehow misunderstood the assignment or crossed a line I had not meant to cross.
When the room emptied, I walked to the front of the lecture hall where Professor Nathan Cole stood organizing his papers.
“Avery Collins,” he said. “Sit.”
I lowered myself into the chair across from him.
He slid my essay toward me. “This paper is exceptional.”
I blinked. “I thought maybe I’d done something wrong.”
“You didn’t.”
